No it's not mom!!
He has no idea that school will dominate his energy, time, thoughts, emotions, ....life....from now until he's a man. wow. This is scary. How did I get out of that Kindergarten classroom without crying today? I guess I knew I had to, I didn't want him to think I was sad b/c I'm not sad. I'm soooo happy. but in a sad sort of way. Every mom knows this feeling. I'm glad I'm not alone.
Brent was talking to him mom about his first day of Kindergarten, and she told him that she cried. He asked if I was going to cry and I told him I might. He was a little confused as to why I might cry or why his mom did. REALLY??? ugh. men. Love that man, but for reals....seriously? I told him that I guess it's different for moms than it is for dads, at least stay at home moms. You spend pretty much 24 hours a day (minus sleep time) for FIVE years with a person, and then one day, you just leave them...in a room with 24 other kids and only ONE adult? Are we all clinically insane? yes. yes we are.
I didn't just leave Judah behind. I left my heart. I guess that's what makes you want to cry. The only thing that held the tears in until I reached the car was knowing that I am still doing what is best for Judah. He needs this, he will grow and blossom so much in school. I am confident of this. The smile on his face as he waved goodbye was priceless. I'm glad that, for once, I got a milestone on video.
